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2003-07-19T01:30:00.000+08:00

I've moved.
http://hateration.blogspot.com
So change youre links aight? x)

2003-07-15T22:57:00.000+08:00

((I hope the man upstairs
isn't mad at me
Because I have one of his angels
And she's here with me
When I see her precious smile
And she spreads her wings
It takes me to a place where love
Meets eternity
-
I'll tell the world
That haven is missing an angel
My dreams came true
When I found you
Yes heaven is missing an angel
-
Not a day goes by
That I don't thank God for you
He blessed me with my angel
Though I don't deserve you
Until I found you girl
Lonely was my best friend
Now that you are in my life
I am stronger within))

I love you my dearest precious angel.

School today was great as usual thou my bitchass wasnt there.
Rehearsals was fun too. Did an italian rehearsal-style. xD
Hmm Gardens after that wit the silly twit of a brother & dear.
Met the two people I havent seen for damnit long-HAIZI & CHOCO CHIP!!
Saw Gil then Kai.
My precious angel, Ady & Tim also came down laters.
Went home wit Benben & now I'm feelin damnit worried fer tomorrow.
Yes, it's the fucken SYF comp tomorrow.
I know the gold's gonna be ours. -crosses fingers & prays-

Sorta had a short bond-bond session wit the deedi.
& we realised that we're both fuckin frank to each other. x)
Haha, I love you lotsa MELISSA ZENG XIANG JIN!!

Ohwells, my dearest ice-cream I'm missing you alot too.
Bleah. Wanna go out wit you soon then can yak yak. xP

Hur. Another person I wanna go out wit is my dearie Vern-cum-Nic.
Yeah it was really great to catchup wit you yesterday?
Missed the times we had in the past. But I still love & trust you all the same!

Oh and to the bestie, I hadta do some decriptive essay today.
& it was either to describe a person or an object.
No prizes for guessin who I described--YOU!. Huggss.

Bestfriend, hope youre feelin better already aight?
Really wanted to visit you. Hee. I love you alot too.
Remember when we talked about us driftin & all wit new lives?
Ya we really did sorta drift, but you know I'll always be here.

To the bitches, my panties,favourite person,jiemei,honey son,sweetheart&pill,
Yall are missed greatly by me.

Ohwells, one more thing!
I'm going for my undershave on Thurs.
No im not turnin andro or whatsoever.
Just stayin neutral!! xP
Hope it'll turn out fine.
Long long loooooooong entry here. Haha.
Till then*

2003-07-13T14:14:00.000+08:00

Wenta jog in the morn after talkin to Tristan boyboy.
Haha. He's damn fulla shit. Ohwells, met my qin ai de Ken after that.

Anyway, I LOST MY HP!.
So my dearest bitchass, it wasnt a dream!
-knocks your hollow head-

Hmm be gettin a spare hp from my dear first.
Hurhur. Guess I'll get the sim card back tomorrow or Tues?

Last night was fun fun walkin up & down town wit boyboy.
He canst laugh cause his facial muscles are so screwed?
I feel kinda sad fer him.
Ktv after that wit Vic Dawn Ken Gil Anne Yijun.
Boy, Anne is like power de ma!!
She's really good. xD
Went home after that by the NEL.(North-East Line)
Hurhur.

Aight be off to gardens now to meet the hotass & darling daddy.
Might be droppin by dear's house. x)
Laters!

2003-07-10T19:21:00.000+08:00

My jaw fuckin hurts.
Ouch ouch ouch.
-Glares at Net-
Yeahs, she's like Mr Muscleman?!
Bleah.

School's been great wit the fuckers, the ugly bitchass, the dear & 4G.
Canst wait for O's to be over.
& the worse part is i've started plannin on what to do after O's.
Hurhur. My cruise. Thailand. KL. The camp on the beach. Etc etc.
So exciting, then I realised its only July!?!
Haha nevermind, its exactly two more months to my birthday.
Hmm two months plus 2 days to my dearie Ken's!!
Yay its so fun having a goodfriend whose bday is so close to youres.

As for the favourite person, I wish I could burn bloody cartel down.
As well as burn that bitch of a manager(the one who's always scolding you) alive.
Hur. I'm evil but all because I love you sooo much. x) Mwaks.

Anyway, I've got 5 eyecandies now!! Lol.
To be exact, its actually only four.
I got forced into the last one. Haha.
My #1 bung rocks.(only for those who know who she is.)

Btw, I love those people who went Sentosa wit me on Sunday!
And all those people who left such sweet comments.
And all those other people out there who love me too! Hee.

2003-07-08T19:13:00.000+08:00

Trust is a very delicate subject.
Wouldnt want anyone to betray my trust fer them,
especially if we're like damn close.
Yet, sometimes things do happen.
In this case, I feel so confused.
Have no idea wtf is really going on.
Just hope that my judgement this time round isnt wrong.
because i really love this particular person involved.

Perhaps Vic was right,
I always trust people too easily.
That's why I end up gettin hurt & all.
Sighs. From now on, I'm gonna try not to let my guard down so easily.

Troubling matters just won't go away.
And my blood cant stop boiling. x(
Whatever Bastard.
Youre no longer in my life,
so why do you act like youre still in it?
Yeah I'm a megabitchass who doesnt care about how you feel.
But have you actually spared a thought for me?!
I'm sick of having to pacify you & convince you of this & that.
I really needa break from all these shit.

Ugh. I'm feelin so frigging fuct. x/

2003-07-03T15:07:00.000+08:00

The name Vern gives you a strongly independent and highly creative nature, with drive and ambition to have experiences and accomplish things out of the ordinary. You can work intently at whatever is new and holds your interest at the moment, but your interest wanes quickly when drudgery and monotony set in. Obstacles to your progress or restrictions on your freedom to act create a sense of frustration which may cause you to feel resentful and even rebellious. You can then become intolerant of others, and caustic and belittling in your expression, thereby imposing stress on your personal relationships. Although you have a clever, quick, capable mind, your progress in life is restricted by instability in your affairs and misunderstandings with people. Your impulsive nature can lead to actions which you later regret taking, or to accidents. Relaxation is elusive, and depletion due to nervous tension can develop to the point where you become subject to moods of depression and morbid thoughts. Nervous tension centres in the solar plexus, with nervous indigestion and stomach ulcers a possible result.

It's kinda true. Shudders.
Though it isn't really my full name, but wtf.

I'm going shoppin wit my mama later! x)
Haha buyin my pressie fer the best friend too.
YAY YOURE TURNIN 17 TOMORROW WEI!!!
Okay I have no idea why I'm becomin so hyper actually.
Guess its cause I wenta school today? Hur.
I love everyone. Lazy to type but I'm sure you know who you are!

2003-07-02T08:54:00.000+08:00

Once again, I'm sitting infront of my comp.
Waiting for the damned pages to load.
Online learning aint that fun after all. x(

Had a great time at gardens yesterday, managed to finish all my math.
Quite an accomplishment I must say x)
All thanks to my violent tutor. -Wink wink.

The Favourite Person Who Hasnt Been Forgotten.
Youre my favourite person because I love you the most!!
How can I have possibly forget you?! Silly donk, I miss you.

::you can try to runaway & pretend I don't exist.::

2003-07-01T08:39:00.000+08:00

Hmm I think we should do this more often.

Mac's biggie breakfast, Cuppa nice hot tea,
My dearest computer & my precious ciggies.
Yes, my school is trying out the online learning shit today & tomorrow.
Great efforts & time put in for the students,
although the whole system is kinda cranky. Hurhur.

Anyway, LIANGYI!!!
Ice-cream, what loads to ask me?! Haha.
Sound so fierce for what?! Tskk.

KEN! My dearest jie mei, I miss you!
Though it has only been 4 days since I last saw you,
youre xiong di really misses you. Lol.

Hurhur. Just a li'l notes here & there. Hmm
gonna get some studyin done now.
(& read some blogs too, maybe gbk signing as well?!!)

2003-06-29T13:55:00.000+08:00

It's been a week since I last came back.
Checked on my comments & all, thanks to all you sweeties.

Well, went for my junior's wake yesterday.
Am not sure if I have the right to be devastated,
but I'm definitely upset over it.
Don't really know her well, never did talk much to her.
She was pretty sweet, always on smiles, demure & gentle.
Heard she was in 3-pure & she was in SYF too.
Such an intelligent & talented girl, yet ...

This is the 1st time someone so young I know passed away.
It's so scary the way someone'll just leave us outta the blue.
Suddenly, it's making me cherish everything around me more.
How cliche these words may sound, but there are still truths in them.

Am gonna start blogging regularly.
Try to keep my mind off certain stuffs.

2003-06-22T12:02:00.000+08:00

It's finally over between us.
Yeah perhaps people think I'm heartless,
or maybe even being a bitchass.
But I guess they are the ones who don't understand what's going on.

I'm sorry that it has to end this way wit you hurting & all.
But remember what I told you about being strong?
You gotta live life without me.
Nothing lasts forever.

Guess I'll be abandoning this blog for awhile.
Gotta find a new place to pen my thoughts.
This blog has been far too public.
Open and exposed.

I'll be back for you when the time is right.

2003-06-18T10:05:00.000+08:00

Are You Naughty or Nice?

If I were a month I would be: September!
If I were a day of the week I would be: Friday!
If I were a time of day I would be: 12 midnight!
If I were a planet I would be: Pluto!
If I were a sea animal I would be: Squirt! Haha, from nemo.
If I were a direction I would be: East. Cause the sun rises from the east!
If I were a piece of furniture I would be: A nice comfty massage chair. Grins.
If I were a historical figure I would be: Hitler. I think he's cool. x)
If I were a liquid I would be: Bourbon!!!
If I were a stone, I would be: a rock cause I ROCK!
If I were a tree, I would be: nice big xmas tree wit a glittery purple star on the top.
If I were a bird, I would be: a dove? a swallow? but definitely not a PIGEON!
If I were a tool, I would be: a hammar!! Lol.
If I were a flower/plant, I would be: a cactus. xD
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: a sunny one wit lotsa wind!
If I were a mythical creature, I would be: unicorn ...
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: a trampoline cause every1'll know how to use me!
If I were an animal, I would be: a foxaye~* winks at ade.
If I were a color, I would be: P-U-R-P-L-E!!!
If I were an emotion, I would be: anger.
If I were a vegetable, I would be: a nice black mushroom xD
If I were a sound, I would be: a loud shriek.
If I were an element, I would be: fire so can light up ciggies.
If I were a car, I would be: a Jeep. Beep-Beep!
If I were a song, I would be: Put your head on my shoulder. Haha.
If I were a movie, I would be directed by: Roger Jenkins. He's the man!
If I were a book, I would be written by: Sophie Kinsella. She's darn furny!
If I were a food, I would be: Choco ice-cream! -Grins at Liangyi.
If I were a place, I would be: Eygpt! x)
If I were a material, I would be: Stainless steel. Hur.
If I were a taste, I would be: Sour, anything but bitter.
If I were a scent, I would be: The smell of MARLBORO!!!
If I were a religion, I would be: Satanic. Definitely.
If I were a word, I would be: Vern! The one & only.
If I were an object, I would be: a cigarette?
If I were a body part I would be: a tongue.
If I were a facial expression I would be: Pout pout pout.
If I were a subject in school I would be: Is recess counted?
If I were a cartoon character I would be: Squirt! My boyfriend. Smiles.
If I were a shape I would be: a Circle! Round round baby round round.
If I were a number I would be: sixty nine!!! 69

2003-06-17T22:05:00.000+08:00

Youre my sunshine my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are grey
You never know dear how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away!

Sunset bay tomorrow. x)
Hurhur. Sheesh.
Hope the damn weatherman is wrong.
Mutter mutter. Curse curse.

Can't wait to see everyone tomorrow!
My baby, Net Mel Huis Ly Gil Cj Vic(Maybe?) & don't know who else coming along.

Rain rain go away. come again another day!

2003-06-13T19:34:00.000+08:00

FLAG DAY 14 JUNE 03 SATURDAY 1PM-5PM TOWN AREA
Come visit me & donate aight? PUH-LEASEEE ...

Tonight's gonna be the last night I'm going down.
Really gotta get myself into THE mood.
Can't afford to partae anymore. Gotta study!! x(

Sometimes you feel the heat rising too high,
& you have the urge to break & escape from all the pressure.
Running away from reality? No, no that's not it.
It's more than just that, I'm not running away.
I'm merely taking a break from it all.

I need space. I need time. I need to breathe.

Waitin for my darling bestie to be ready. Hur.
Hey Vic, havent told you this for a looong time,
but you really mean alot to me & i can never imagine the both of us apart.
Stay like this forever cause I love you just the way you are.

Be lookin forward to monks tonight because I wanna see alot of people.
Like THE FAGGIE! THE PILL! THE SWEETHEART! THE FAV PERSON! THE LUCKYSTAR!
& many others of course. xP

2003-06-11T11:38:00.000+08:00

Ah THE long-awaited hols are finally here!!!
Hmm let's see, I'm free almost everyday!
So quick, let's all meet up. Haha.
I'm free to shop, talk, smoke, laugh, slack, eat & hangout wit you.
So just drop me a sms or something yeah? xD`

Till then, I'll be loving you.
Love me.

2003-06-08T10:34:00.000+08:00

Got up super early this morning.
Wenta the park to jog like 2.4++km?!
Ya, came home & found out I got locked outside my house.
Frowns. I banged, yelled & screamed.
Till my neighbour came out.
She's a very nice indian lady who invited me to her house.
She treated me to nice tea & indian snacks.
Hmm ... x)~ Yeah yeah I'm droolin away still.

And after whole 45 minutes of conversing wit her in hokkien,
(Yesh, she's amazingly brilliant in hokkien.)
I finally gotten the chance to come home.
Hmm it was an unexpected incident but its times like these that always make me sit down & think hard about life, philosophical stuufs & all. Giggle.

Will be going to meet my dear to study i think.
So LEE HUIYI, get your arse to the phone!

Hmm had fun yesterday.
Was at home wit my baby in the afternoon.
Then I came downtown to meet my Net papa & Gillian!
Had my usual chicky rice, come to think of it,
I don't exactly eat the chicken, I only eat rice & drink the duck soup.
So technically speaking, I don't eat yuan dong's chicky rice!
Gasps.
After that Gillian left due to unforseen circumstances
& left Net & I. So in the end, we went down to club den.
Slacked, played cards(& pool for my papa), drank, sang etc.
Got a li'l tipsy & I slept in the cab all the way to gardens.
Met my dear, deedi & my deedi's sister at kopibean.
Hur. It was slackin once more, till we all got tired & went home.

Met alotta people along the way in town.
Missed the bitches so fuckin much. & ktv-in makes me miss you all more!
Since the hols are here, this bitchass here is gonna organise a bitches' outing.
ONLY BITCHES & NO GIRLFRIENDS/BOYFRIENDS/ETC.

Aight gonna have my breakfast now x)

2003-06-05T21:58:00.000+08:00

Hmm for those who don't know,
My baby & I are back together!!! -Grins-

At home nowee.
Sighs. Havent blogged for so long.
Shrugs. Just like aint have anything to blog I guess. xP

Anyhows, i just realised all my holidays are gonna be taken up!
Groans. x(
Oh yeah, wanna ask everyone for their opinion,
Should I go do an undershave? x)

Another thing, should I get a tattoo of butterfly on my ankle?
& should I do chinese characters or my name(in another language) on my shoulder?

Hmm I needa savee! Besides, the GSS is here. x)
Aight I'm gonna go find food to eat.
Grr. Hungry vern.

P/S. DAWN & NET
Hurry call me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ripped this from Va's blog.

I TRY: to study but I just cannot?!!
I KNOW: that someone who's very special to me thinks I'm fake.
I WANT: the special someone & I to be alright again.
I WISH: Mr Marlboro'll marry me.
I HATE: feelin like nothin but fuct shit.
I MISS: Vern's cole. The faggie!! The Papa.The Best friend.The Bestie.The Bitches.
The Favorite Person.The Deedi.The fuckers.The amazinggracians.The whatever-ians(?).(& it goes on...)

I FEAR: losing all my 5 senses.
I HEAR: wtf.?!
I SEARCH: for TRUE enlightenment. xP
I BELIEVE: everyone's a hypocrite.
I WONDER: if youre thinking of me.
I REGRET: hurting people around me in the past.
I LOVE: cigarettes, vern's cole, the bitches & everyone else i talk to?
I CARE: stuffs that're more superficial. Tskk.
I ALWAYS: think of you when i hear THAT song. OMG.
I DANCE: cause I love it. xD
I SING: even though I'm always outta tune.
I CRY: whenever I'm sad, or even if I'm pist.
I FIGHT: wit my parents or anyone else.
I WRITE: wit pens & pencils & markers & .. you get my point.
I WIN: cause nobody wants to be a loser right?
I LOSE: when I don't win?
I CONFUSE: oxymorons. Haha. Loving hate!!!
I LISTEN: to Eminem. He enlightens me. x)
I NEED : to smoke. RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW!
I BREATHE: air that consists of nitrogen oxygen carbon dioxide ... etc.
I SHOULD: go sleep because everyone's like loggin off one by one.
I DREAM: you mean nice clean dreams or the liquid ones? Giggle.
I FEEL: sleepy. & I wanna read my new book!
I AM NOT: anything close to a dickhead.

2003-06-01T11:11:00.000+08:00

Talked to Dawn last night for quite sometime.
& all thanks to her, she managed to knock some sense into me.
Yeah she said something that sounded really true.
"It doesnt matter if you msged someone you like & care for alot
but she didn't reply you. As long as you gotten your point across."
Smiles. So vern shouldn't be like some paranoid bitchass.
Afterall, I told her to takecare of herself & stuffs.
But she still hasnt replied me, so I'm quite worried.

Thanks Dawn, I know youre readin this. x)`
& yes, youre happily added to my phone as "Favourite Person".
I'm waitin for you to call me. So hurry!!

::looking over the edge
I can almost see you smile
but I can't be too sure
looking to the light
I can almost hear you call
but I can't be too sure
please don't leave me here alone
it's getting dark
please take me home
what else can I say
to make you look my way
I've tried to do the things you've said
it's not working
is it all in my head
I want to close my eyes
and count to ten
and when I open them
I want to be somewhere else
I just don't see the things
other people seem to see
reaching out to touch you
a name without a face
but I don't really understand
I ask to you these questions
for you I do recall:: (( imissyou ))

2003-06-01T00:07:00.000+08:00

Once again, after not bloggin for so long.
It's time to retrace what I did the past few days.

Friday
Gardens in the evenin wit Mel & Huis.
Studied my literature & left when Net came down.
Were on our way to monks when Shuxiang wanted to meet.
So both of us went down town instead!
Sat at taka & talked for like 2 hours plus.(I think.)
Then we rushed down to monks &
I managed to catch Vic at the stroke of midnight to wish her:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTIE!!!!!!

It was friggin boring at monks cause very li'l people went down!
So I sat down by the stage & held a damn long conversation with Ken.
Haha, my entertaining new-found friend. x)`
Lotsa crap happened last night. Hur.

Today(Saturday)

Had to wake up super duper early for some shit talk in school.
Went home after that.
Met Mel the dearie deedi who was damn friggin late!
Wenta town & met many many people.
Guan Zi Pau Col Rick Vern aJ Rach Jill Trev Carmen Sann Mal Pris
Not all at the same time of course.
Net & I finally managed to take neoprint without any disaster.
So Net Mel Eunice & I slacked around.
Cole came to send me home eventually.

Am contemplatin whether to go over to Tim's.
But my cramps are fuckin hurtin so much,
think I shall just curl up in bed & rest. Ugh.

2003-05-28T23:35:00.000+08:00

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad.
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad.
All i wanna do is grow old with you.
I'll get you medicine when your tummy aches.
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks.
So it could be so nice growing old with you.
I'll miss you. Kiss you.
Give you my coat when you are cold.
Need you. Feed you.
Even let you hold the remote control.
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink.
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink.
Oh I could be the one that grows old with you.

(( I wanna grow old with you. ))

2003-05-26T22:21:00.000+08:00

We broke up.

My fucking aunt called from Australia & made me feel like a failure.

My mom & I argued.
I threw things at her, calling her "SLUT" & "JIBAI".
I feel like some total bitchass.

Its not that I don't feel for her anymore.
Its just that I don't think I feel for her enough
& that I'll hurt her in the long run.
So shouldn't I break with her now so that
duan tong bu ru chang tong?
I feel bad & I feel some heartless bitchass but I miss her already.

My aunt called, & enquired about my studies.
Talked about my retainment & that I won't have a future if I go poly & pursue drama.
Wtf.
Drama is like my life? I mean like, she shouldnt just misjudge me like that?!
So I got pissed off & my mom trots in & starts nagging.
So crazy vern got hysterical & started screaming obscenities at her.

I felt so fuct I went downstairs for a smoke.
Talked to Net then Kerliang.
I talked a li'l to Pau too.
Thanks you guys though ker wasnt much of a help.
Hur. Cole came to accompany me.
She consoled me, hugged me, kissed me & made me feel everything was alright.

& when I came back home, my mom hugged me.
And for the like 6th time, my eyes were choked wit tears.
How can I ever bear to scream at that nice kind lady?

I'm gonna study hard.
Do what I really wanna do & prove to that fuckin wretch of an aunt.

As for Cole, I'm sorry things turned out this way.
Thanks for the memories & all the love you've given.
I'm just sorry that I couldn't give you enough.
Don't hurt anymore alright? I'm always here still. & will always be.

Huis You make my tears go away(literally).
For all those phone calls & laughter you created when I'm down,
You really rock my socks.

Mar & Grace, thanks bitches.
Thanks for believing in me alright? Love yall.

Everyone who cares & the best friend & the bestie, I love yall.
Right from the bottom of my heart.

2003-05-26T15:21:00.000+08:00

Wanted to have fish & Co. so badly yesterday.
But when my baby & I met Va,
we realised the other two assholes weren't coming.
Frowns. So in the end, we had lunch
& we went down to gardens to meet Mel & Huis.
Did the usual studyin, slackin, talkin & all.
Maine Seek Fiona Jay Chase were sitting at a table next to us.
Hur. Wei came down shortly after.
Dinndinn at chompchomp after which we all headed home.

School today was great, didnt have much lessons.
Except for the last two periods of Chinese. x)`
So i kept myself occupied by listening talking & bitching with fellow gracians
& reading this super intriguing book about sexual abuses & incest & blahblah.
-Makes a face- Rather perverted book I would say.
Am quite traumatised by it as a matter of fact. x|`

Home early today because I'm typing some letter.
Well, Pau & I are sorta in the process of clearing things up.
I'm glad. x)`

2003-05-24T23:30:00.000+08:00

Home early on a Saturday night.
Hmm. Monks last night was so hot, I left.
But it was great to see those friday people.
Esp Bin. Gosh I missed you so much!
Hur. Had a huge arguement with my baby.
Left at the stroke of midnight.
Some kinda Cinderella. Giggle.
Went home & we sorta argued again.
Shrugs.

Town today was fun with Net & Guan!
Eat yuan dong's chicky rice, played pool at mambo,
slacked at spinelli's, walked, took neoprints & slacked again.
Tim & my baby came down later.
& she bought me three different bubble toys!
So im playing with one of them now, seeing all those bubbles make me smile.

She also gave me this handmade tube of rice grains.
512 purple-colored grains, 169 grains with the numbers "512" written on each one,
11 saga seeds. x)` Sweet & nice.

Wenta gardens for awhile to meet Mel & Huis.
Didnt have space for me, so I left them studying.

Talking to Net now & I realised the both of us sound like BIMBOES!
Hurhur. Fine she just said I do but she doesnt.
Hmphf. Whatever. x|`
Going to have lunch with the debators tomorrow!
Yay~ Fish & Co. our usual. x)`

2003-05-22T15:25:00.000+08:00

-Counts fingers-
Havent blogged for 4 days!
To all my darlings, I miss you all.
& Jill why are you frowning?! You should know I still care!

Yeah busied myself with work & play.
At home now, waiting for my cup noodles!

Monday was helluva great time at Abby's place,
with the rest of the Amazinggracians. x)`
Nette Jiam Cand Daph Jo Pau & my 'extra' baby.
Played stewpid drinkin games. Hur.

Tuesday was twin plagues of shit.
School school school.
Work work work.
Had an ice-kachang break with Nette.
Think the both of us are definitely gonna frequent that shop in future.

Wednesdays are study sessions with Mel deedi.
Net Huis & my baby came down gardens too.
Proved to be very distracting. So the decision was:
Study sessions just between the both of us. x)`

Will be going down gardens again laters to meet my bestie.
Lotsa catchin up to do!! And work too, of course.
Off to eat my noodles. Tomyam~ My favouritee! xD`

2003-05-18T00:23:00.000+08:00

It was great at monks last night.
Hur. Net managed to drag me down.
At least I can still see most of my darlings there.
That's like my ONLY consolation.

Went home in the afternoon
then rushed to town to meet Net & Mousey for dindin.
Yuan Dong's chicky rice.
Met up with Wei Mel Sheryl Maine too.
Saw Rongers & Zac at fareast.
I want my choco-jellies!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -Glares at xtt-

After that, my baby Mel & I bussed down to gardens.
Met Xx Cecilia Guan Huis & a whole big buncha SJCians(?).
The usual laughing, crapping & eating. Love those 2 SPs sial.
Fiona Jovin Chase sat with us for a lil while. x)`

Overall, it was a fun fun day cos I managed to meet soo many sweeties.
Thanks you all for making my day.

P.S. Mr. Niceass! You stewpid zeebai! Haha. Love love love love!
(Trev will understand why there're 4 loves.)

2003-05-16T19:04:00.000+08:00

My fingers need all these exercise.
Am getting lazy & sluggish. Eew.

Am going for dinner at golden C tonight! x)`
Yay love the food there & I'm gonna personally drag aJ down monks.
Haha & I'll leave her there.
She can find her own company.(As usual.)

Had a great vesak holiday.

Spent my Weds night at Monks. In Tee-Shirt & FBT shorts!
-Glares at Net- It's all your fault.
& my dearest deedi, MELISSA ZENG had to look so good.
Making Ady & I look like marketing people.
I mean those aunties who go to the market. Grr.
Had fun drinking & playing "I never" & "Truth Or Dare".
Hmm this is bad. I must STOP going down. x|`

Thurs was mellow, smooth, but no, definitely NOT boring!
Gotta watch x2 finally with Net!! Yeah I'm so slow.So?!
"IMMMMMMMAAAMMMMUTANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Giggle.
Think my baby's getting sick of my whole "i-wanna-be-a-mutant-" phase.
-Stamps-

Mutation- a spontaneous change in the structure of a gene or chromosome.

2003-05-13T19:57:00.000+08:00

To all who cares, THANK YOU!! x)` iLu*
Suddenly, I feel so loved. Hurhur.
Oh wells, things are alright already so every1 dont worry yeah?

Had my weekly dosage of yuan dong's chicky rice today.
Lots of laughing & talking & eating!
Had a great time talking to Net during break today.
Giggle. She's really the bestest daddy i've got! (Besides you, Rongers!)
And my sweeetiest pie, Kaeden korkor~

Supposed to meet my honey son Sheryl today,
but she was happily at the beach with Trev Jerage Weiningx!
Bleah, they were all tempting me to go down, sorta. But I was in school!
Screams. I needa tan so badly, I'm looking like a white chicken I swear.
Sighs. But I do miss those people who were at the beach. x(`
I haven't met so many of my dearies for soo long! I'm missing you all.
Like crazy!!! To the Best Friend & the Bestie, I love you both. Mwakks.

2003-05-12T15:25:00.000+08:00

Call me crazy, call me stupid, call me childish.
But don't try to judge me when you don't know how I feel.
Yeah I can blame it all on the PMS & the moodswings,
but the end of it all, it boils down to the question.

"Do I really love her?"

I don't know but I do know I miss her alot.
I don't wanna feel obligated to be with her.
I wanna be with her because I want to.
Cole, gimme time to think this over.
I need the time alone to give this relationship thought.

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away to find a better day

Well I'm so tired baby
things you say you're driving me away
whispers in the powder room baby
don't listen to the games they play
girl I thought you'd realise
I'm not like them other guys
coz I saw them with my own eyes
you should've been more wise
and well I don't wanna live my life too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights I'm sorry to say lady

|| vern's walking. walking away. ||

2003-05-11T22:15:00.000+08:00

Was home the whole day.
Met up with Net Ady Tim at Sgoon Central though.
Tim cut her hair!! x)` Haha. Not bad la.
Sat down at the void deck & started talking cock. As usual.
Oh wells, had a mini-bitching session!
But Vern's still very happy cause she spent the day with a whole buncha sweeties!

2003-05-11T00:33:00.000+08:00

Seeing Jin's guestbook message left me all teary.
I miss that bitch so much. Sighs. Hope she's fine in aussie though.

Anyway, had a great Saturday.
Was home & I boxed my baby. Lol.
Then she fell off the bed. x)` Haha.
Chatted with Vic on the phone too.
Hur. Had fun bitching about the girlfriends. -winks-
Wenta town after that & caught glimpses of
Mar Rongers Adeline Pau Rick Yeeon Sidney(don't know how to spell)
Hmm gardens after that.
With Huis Net Mel Tim Shuxiang(She left after awhile.)
Was fun cause they were the ones who really brightened up this Saturday of mine!

Was supposed to meet that Tristan.
He had a weekend break from the home but just didnt have the time to.
Shucks! Sheryl & Maine too.
Nevermind, will be meetin that honey son of mine on Tue x)`

|| cuz I feel like bustin loose and I feel like touchin you ||

2003-05-10T02:42:00.000+08:00

Just came back from monks.
It was great to see friends.
But monks is just so different now.
I mean like, so many (insert word here).
Hur. Oh wells, guess I wont be going down for a looong time.
Don't really like the new monks.
*Sticks tongue out.

Happy Second Month Baby!
Am one day late. Bleah. xP`
But nevermind right? Hurhur.

It'll be the bitches day out tomorrow!! Can't wait.
It's been soooo long. Haha.
Bought my bestie marshmallows just now~
Vic my sugared bestie, you know I love you!
& one more person, Ade candy jiee!
Thanks for this -winks- ilu*
Off to do my work.
Been rusty for oh so long. Essay essay. x(`
School's been driving me nuts. Tskk.

\\i wish on a falling star wondering where you are do i ever cross your mind in your world so fine\\she's from city of angels\\i fell for the girl-who-sits-next-door.
I'm so gonna get killed for this. xP`

vern\\> haha silly kor
\\kaeden> too hyper
\\kaeden> coz i'm toking to a gal who can make me smile
\\kaeden> ----------> points to vern

She makes me go all fuzzy wuzzy inside.
She makes me melt. She makes me smile.
She's none other but my Kaeden korkor. xD`

2003-05-05T22:28:00.000+08:00

Havent updated this for so long!
Hurhur. Oh wells, have got a fever over the weekend.
Hmm brief summary.

Saturday
Home. She took care of me cause I was so fuckin feverish.
Town after that with Tim cause I was feeling better.
A li'l catchin up with Cj, Colin, Jo.
Mahjong in the night at Tim's place with Ady too!

Sunday
Gardens with Cole Wei Huis. x)`
Robin came down after that.
That stupid retard is fulla shit I swear! xP`

Today
School. Fruitful day though. Va'd know what I mean.
Hmm lessons all the way till 430. Cheer pract after that.
Woah. What kind of a busy day! x(

Enough about my boring life.
Gotta meet up with the bitches soon I swear.
Missing them to bits already! x|` Grr.

::I don't want you to give it all up
And leave your own life collecting dust
And I don't want you to feel sorry for me
You never gave us a chance to be
And I don't need you to be by my side
To tell me that everything's alright
I just wanted you to tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you
Why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
Cause I did enough to show you that I
Was willing to give and sacrifice
And I was the one who was lifting you up
When you thought your life had had enough
And when I get close, you turn away
There's nothing that I can do or say
So now I need you to tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you
So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
Is it me, is it you
Nothing that I can do
To make you change your mind
Is it me, is it you
Nothing that I can do
Is it a waste of time?
Is it me, is it you
Nothing that I can do
To make you change your mind
So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
...What is it I've got to say...
So why are you running away?
...To make you admit you're afraid...
Why are you running away?::

2003-05-02T23:33:00.000+08:00

Hmm didnt go down monks today.
Haha. Am sneezing away damn badly.
My baby came over to keep me company for the evening.
Nose feels like fuck sial.

Sent my baby home early cos I didnt want her to get it from me.
So now shes happily at home,
safe from Vern's virus!! x)`

Oh man~ she just sneezed! Shucks.
This is not good. Tsk tsk. x(`
Yeah & I shouldnt look at my eyecandy too much
cause Cole aint really happy about it.
Sighs. Am waiting for my parents to bring those nice chicky wings home!

Sighs. Oh yeahs, stewpid Trev called.
Happily thinking Iam in town. Hurhur.
Wadda silly sweetheart whom i love sooooo much.
Oh wells, be having cheer pract tomorrow!
Filming in the morning though. x(`
Might be going down to Bugis to visit the deedi for her flagday.
Be performing for seagate on Tue. Hope Iam able to make it.
Bones all seem to be breaking. Lol.

Yay~ Parents're home!! xD`
Gonna go eat all I can now. x)`

2003-05-01T23:09:00.000+08:00

Monks last night wasn't really boring.
It was just super empty. Hur.
But saw quite a few of my darlings. x)
Jill Trev Liangyi Jerage Sharon Colin
They are the ones I dont see often.
But I still love so much.

Robin the stupid boy & Trevor the sweetheart bit me.
Notice the italics for "sweet"? Hmphf. Pain sial.
Anyway was at gardens again today.
Studied a li'l with my baby, Sab & Wei.
Then went home & had a looooong talk with my baby.
About alot of stuffs. I guess things are gonna work out afterall. x)`

Am going to concentrate talking on the phone.
Vern's not-so-good at multi-tasking (According to Cole.)

2003-04-30T08:39:00.000+08:00

Just woke up.
Yes, I do have school.
But its PE now!! -groans-
Hmm shall surf around awhile more before I get my ass to school.

x)`
Gardens later with Net. Yay! Can't wait.
Town after that followed by monks.
Sense my excitement here? Havent went down for damn long.
Going down earlier to pei Bin. xP`
Oh wells. Realised alotta ppl not going tonight.
Hmm. DARLINGS OF MINE, HEAR MY PLEA!
& GO DOWN!! Haha. Pei Vern la. -Hugs.
If not, I'll suffer from bad case of missingeveryoneness.

-Scuttles to school-
PE has officially just ended. xD`

2003-04-28T15:20:00.000+08:00

Quote of the day:"Ahhhhhhh, Robin raped me!!"

The ex-girlfriends are on the phone.

Bitching. Talking. Crapping. Laughing. Bitching.

Haha. Yeah its the stupid boy Binbin & stupid girl Vernie!
If there's one thing we do best, that'll only be bitching. x)`
Can't you tell by now? Lol.
Waiting for my baby to finish school. Pouts.

Stupid Robin just cracked me up.
By doing some impersonation of our favouritest person!!
-Winks at Bin- Shrugs.
Its like a bottle of milk gone sour.
Everything's so blurry everyone's so fake.
That's our conclusion.

Anyway, my baby's done with school. xD`
Guess I'll go meet her now!!! xP`

2003-04-27T21:02:00.000+08:00

Shall blog about yesterday’s events first.
Wenta watch the play competition in the afternoon.
Watched it with my baby, Cand Nette Jiam.
Left halfway cause I was too damnit hungry.
Grabbed some chicken rice.
Sadly, its not my favourite yuan dong’s chicky rice. x(

Then my baby & I headed to town to meet
Vic Xx Guan Mel Net Mousey Zac Daniel
I was kept amused the whole time by my SP2 who was constantly taking photos.
Haha. “My name’s Xiaoxiang.” Lol. Private joke.
& Guan niceass too!! Shes sooo cute.
Missed seeing her around.
Just sad that we didn’t manage to talk much yesterday.
Nvm, soon okay? xP
& my daddy too!! Net, don’t worry too much alright?
Things’ll sort themselves out & meanwhile we shall just go eat chicky rice!!

Left for Mar’s place in the evening.
Rongers Keiji Char & Sab went over too.
Played a li’l mahjong, drank a li’l, played with Max a li’l too.

Went home feeling totally tired, yet happy.
Cause I had sucha fun & fruitful day!!

Am at home now.
Going over to Gardens to meet Wei & Huis.
Hopefully, I can get some work done.
Have been slacking a lot for the past few days. x(
-Feels guilty- Oh wells.

2003-04-26T08:53:00.000+08:00

Had a long day in school yesterday.
Easter Mass, lessons, LD.

Was actually dreading LD cause of rehearsals.
Yeah sorta thought about the whole matter.
True, I don't believe in the script or in my role.
I keep thinking that our play is not up to SYF standards.
& I just cannot do my role properly. I suck at it.
But CharO talked to me about it & knocked some sense into me.
Sigh. Just hope that I'm able to do my best.
However thanks to my fellow LD-ians.
They make going for LD all worthwhile.
Va.Yogs.CharO.CharY.Sam.Yangx.Zhi.Di.

My baby came to pick me up after school.
Went stationery shopping. Haha.
Yesh, go roll those eyes of yours.
I can't help it if my pencilbox is always so empty?!!
& my baby then bought me a li'l bear too.
I named it Xiao NiNi as in Ni for NiCOLE! x)
Had kuay chap for dinner & off we went home.

She had a really sweet surprise for me. x)
She bought the "tortoises" which we saw the other day at gardens.
I don't exactly know what they are but they look like turtles
just that they have got no shells & they're constantly in water.
Anyway they're called Ben & Dan.
Like Benjamin & Danielle. Lol.
Also cause its our BenDan code. xD

Baby, I knew you went through alotta trouble to get it.
Thank you so so much. Really appreciate it. x)
Love you for everything you did. Mwaks.

Be going to do some work laters
then gonna watch some play competition with my baby
& head to town, hopefully(for some KTV?).
Haha. Call me if you wanna meet in town laters! xP

2003-04-24T20:05:00.000+08:00

[trevor]> MY GOD MY GOS!
[trevor]> MY GOD MY GOD!
[trevor]> SWEETHEART!
[trevor]> you see!!!
[trevor]> i see you so gan jiong until i can't even type properly
vern\\> :)
vern\\> Haha youre sucha silly asshole!
vern\\> Hmm hows you?
[trevor]> is that the best you can do?
[trevor]> =(
[trevor]> IM FINE LA!
vern\\> SWEEETHEART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[trevor]> hah!
[trevor]> try harder~
* [trevor] tiaos
vern\\> what thing try harder?!!!
vern\\> -bishh.
[trevor]> NVM!
[trevor]> sayang me!
vern\\> orh la orh la.
vern\\> -sayangs-
vern\\> :)
vern\\> my silly cutie sweeetheart!

Haha. Love her to bits & pieces.
Trevor Lee the sweeetheart. =)

Here's my other "make-vern-smile" person:

\\kaeden> sure uh..meet up with me ya..lolx
\\kaeden> bring korkor go play..wahhaha
\\kaeden> like kids
vern\\> hurhur.
vern\\> okay la, bring you out & PLAY!
vern\\> :)

My darling korkor who was always there for me.
Kaeden rocks mei's world!!

2003-04-23T21:25:00.000+08:00

I wanna blog.
About something.
Fun.
Exciting.
Interesting.
Extraordinary.

-thinks.
-ponders.

I can't think of anything!! =(

Haha. Can't you tell how boring my life is?!!
-screams. Anyway I'm missing lotsa people now.
It's all those people who can find their names on those links.
-points to left. Nods.
Haha I'm a lazyass who cant be bothered to put names.
Of cos, I miss the bitches too la! =D

Anyway, been kinda studying?
I don't know what's gotten over me.
Just wanna do well for my O's I guess,
get into mass comm & finish my A's.
Then go on to my school of drama. =)
Okay, 'nuff said.
-Yawns. I'm boring myself to sleep.

(( I'll be loving you forever,
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never.
Even if you took my heart and tore it apart,
I'll love you still forever. ))

2003-04-22T16:41:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday To Cole My Baby!!

At home now & she's next to me
eating the pasta I cooked.
Personally I think it sucks but
SHE being so nice as usual told me its "VERY GOOD!!"
Shrugs. Just hope she really likes it.
Thats all. =)

Will be going downtown later.
Just the both of us PLUS
the camera!! Haha. Will be taking lotsa photos.
Yay, I can't wait! =D

2003-04-20T21:18:00.000+08:00

School tomorrow.
Speech competition.
Deadlines.
Assignments that were due long time ago.
God, so many things to do with so li'l time.

Oh I had a pleasant meetin with Tim & Ady just now.
Was walkin back to Macs with my baby.
& I managed to see Ady with her new perm!
Hurhur. It's really cute! Quite cool actually.

Watching the NKF show now.
The fire thingy is so fuckin cool.
Haha. Shall go watch. =)

2003-04-20T00:44:00.000+08:00

Went downtown today with my baby & xx.
Of course, I was kept entertained throughout.
All thanks to my sP2, XIAOXIANG!!
-looks at Cecilia- i miss you sP1!!
Met up with Mar Rongers Junia too.
Wanna blog about my ~~gathering~~get-a-ring.
But on second thoughts.
I don't want to.

She, She and I.
Three people.
One tiny picture for only two of us.
There wasnt any third party.
Only fucked up arguements.
Youre tired & i'm sick.
I don't care if people think I'm being a bitch or whatever.
Point is I care alot about her as a friend.
& I'm not gonna stop talking or meeting her.
You choose to bring her into the picture.
Shrugs. Oh wells, maybe its just my fault.
Conclusion: I'm not a good gf.
We just can't find a concrete solution to the problem.
I'm not gonna care about this anymore.
Cause this is just so not worth my time. Fuck it.
Do whatever you want.

2003-04-17T21:16:00.000+08:00

No more Singlish for Vern.
She's gonna try speak proper english.
Hopefully she can make it. =)

Might be cheerleading for seagate.
Sighs. Not sure if I'm allowed to thou.
-Prays hard-
Oh wells, some church woman approched me just now.
Talked to me like abt an hour!?
-Shakes head- Tsktsk.

THREE THINGS I LOVE
01 My baby.
02 My bitches & friends.
03 Cigarettes!! (Need I say more?)

THREE THINGS I HATE
01 School.
02 Despos.
03 God.

THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND
01 Love. (Right, baby?)
02 Why 18 is the legal age for fag & alcohol.
03 Why can't lesbians marry each other.

THREE THINGS ON MY DESK
01 Computer.(?!!)
02 Telephone.
03 This month's issue of 'Female' magazine.

THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW
01 Doing this quiz.
02 Chatting.
03 Listening to my Eminem.

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE
01 Smoke.
02 Meet the bitches. They mean alot to me.
03 Eat so much till I barf. Always wanted to try that.

THREE THINGS I CAN DO
01 Smoke! -Grins.
02 Bitch.
03 Scream & yell.

THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY
01 Fuct.
02 Fuct.
03 Fuct.

THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY LOOKS
01 Intellectual. Esp with my glasses. -Smiles.
02 Awful black hair.
03 Rodent-ish? -Groans.
Everyone's saying I look like a hamster,rabbit,mouse,chipmunk..etc.

THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO
01 Be on time. Be it homework or meetings.
02 Stop bitching.
03 Speak tamil.

THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO
01 Eminem.
02 Marshall Mathers.
03 Okay, enough of my darling. Hmm try techno? =)

THREE THINGS I DON'T THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO EVER
01 Avril.
02 My dad's snoring.
03 Me bitching about you. If ever I do.

THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST
01 I.
02 Love.
03 You.

THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS
01 Ice cream.
02 Chocolates.
03 Oreos.

THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY
01 Coke.
02 Tea
03 Alcohol. Yeah baby. =D

THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN
01 Magic. Voodoo. Witchcraft. Something along those lines.
02 Making Nice Vernboro ciggies. =D
03 My A-math!

THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID
01 Beauty & the beast. I still think its the best love story ever.
02 Parent Trap.
03 Dragon ball. The Chinese cartoon.

THREE SHOWS YOU WATCH NOW
01 p-o-r-n. Hurhur.
02 Bachelor.
03 American Idol.

THREE OF YOUR BEST FRIENDS
01 Wei. She's the best friend.
02 Vic. My bestie!
03 Her. Just that we don't talk anymore. My brother too.

THREE OF THE BEST SONGS
01 Colin Raye's Love me.
02 Selena's Dreaming of you.
03 Adam Sandler's Grow Old with you.

THREE OF THE BEST MOVIES
01 2002. The one with Nicholas Tse.
02 8 Mile.
03 Beauty & the Beast.

THREE THINGS YOU WISH THEY KNEW
01 If i'll really die of lung cancer.
02 Will I make it for my O's.
03 Whether I'll spend my life with someone I love.

THREE THINGS THAT MAKE YOU CRY
01 Her. Thank god I don't cry myself to sleep anymore.
02 Seeing my own mother cry because I'm sucha pathetic failure.
03 When my brother's in any trouble.

THREE THINGS THAT MAKE YOU SMILE
01 People special to me. Thou they aint THINGS.
02 Cigarettes.
03 My baby of course.

THREE THINGS THAT MAKE YOU LAUGH
01 'Kayaking' with my baby.
02 Bitches.
03 Huis.

THREE WISHES YOU WOULD MAKE
01 That I'll have one everyday.
02 That my baby'll be happy always.
03 World peace. -Smiles.

Haha. My boring answers. -Sniffs.

2003-04-16T19:50:00.000+08:00

Oh no, vern thinks that she's a boring girl.
Cause she's got nothing to blog abt,
maybe cept fer sch, sch & more sch.
-Frowns.

Haha. Sch today.
Oh wells, Policeman Wandy came during recess to drop breakfast.
Macs hotcakes & hashbrowns with orange juice. =D
Yum yum. Only that
it wasnt for me. But Nette!! -Growls
Lol. & the funniest part was he was in a police car!!

Went home after school.
Think i needed that break from everyone.
Had to think what was REALLY going on in this brain of mine instead
of listening to advices from others(But girls,I really thankyou 4 being there)
Walked around for my neighbourhood.
Gotta thank you for being there for me.
Thanks fer cheering me up yeah?

Had a long talk with my baby.
Ya she found out some stuffs,
but we're gonna work everything out.
Cause it took alot for us to be together
& I also found out a li'l secret!! Lol.
That actually she liked me before like damn long time ago.
Haha but she got over me la.
-Knocks Cole's head. Wadda fucker.
Baby, will talk to you on Mon k? Till then,
Hang in there! -winks.

2003-04-15T13:54:00.000+08:00

Go on, shout.
Yell at me for all I care.

Oh wells, wenta gardens to study after school.
Mel Huis Va Char
Haha. Oops, wait. The names should be
Gel Juis Ba Phar. Yaya & im Rern!
Lol. All thanks to my srewpid deedi la. -growls-
My baby & I went over to Huis place later.
Haha. Danced talked laughed & took many photos! Lol.
Fun fun. =D
Vern wanna do this more often.
It helps to destress, esp from all the screaming. =|
Off to finish the followin assignments:
-English summaries
-English essays(2 of them)
-Lit essay

Woah, am I a busy girl or what.
Grr.

2003-04-14T20:31:00.000+08:00

Hmm school after so long today.
Felt as if my bones were gonna break
& I was walkin around school like a messy freak.
Untied hair flyin all over my face.
Haha & the other usual stuffs I do in school.
-Covers face in embarassment-

S-l-a-c-k-e-d & chilled over at Ian's place.
With him of course, my baby & Abby.
Smoked, talked, laughed & drank vodka 7up.
Lol. & when my baby was walkin me to my mom's car,
her goofy grin totally impressed my mother &
now my mother's in love with her. Haha. =)
So proud of my baby.
I'm missin lotsa ppl now.
Pouts.

Mel Deedi, I wanna blackmail you soon,
You hear me?! Lol. Study hard okie.
Love. You silly twit. -Grins.

Bitches
Hey girls, hope JC's fine yeah?
Am missin the days when we ruled the school,
Like totally. =) ilu*

Sighs. Off to do work.
Vern's gonna be a hardworkin girl from now on. =)

i lie awake I drive myself crazy,
Drive myself crazy, thinking of you.
~~Made a mistake when I let you go baby.~~
I drive myself crazy Wanting you the way that I do.

2003-04-12T06:18:00.000+08:00

Woah that was a long entry. -points below-
Well came back here actually to express thanks.

Vic Haha girl ah.
You & your excuses =)
Love you to bits!

Ade Jieee!!
I wanna smile too. !! + !! = !! !! !! !!
One big happy family. -Winks.
Dine I remembered. =)

Jill Baby youre damnit cute!
Fancy you setting up #JVC!
Ha. To sort things out between bendan.
Of course I appreciated it alot!!. Schmucks.

Jiayi Sayang sayang!!
Though our conversation barely lasted for few mins,
I'm glad to even hear your voice for that moment,
& I know you care. So do I. =D -Hugs.

Mel DeediDeedi
You silly twit of a brother.
You turn my frown upside down.

"but my love is all i have to give without you i dont think i can live i wish i could give my world to you but my love is all i have to give to you." I still love you.

2003-04-12T01:37:00.000+08:00

Just came home from monks.
Only went fer awhile all thanks to my parents.
"O's year ah don't go out so late!"
Sighs. Oh wells, *vern's resigned to her fate!!!

Wenta Char's place today with Cole Jiam Ange.
Believe it or not, we actually played hotel!!
Haha. & I was the richest. =D
If only it was real moneh. Sighs.
Then off to town I went. Met Vic Maine Sheryl.
Yaya & on our way to monks,
my bestie & I were singin in the bus & laughin like nobody's business.
Ah god, I love that girl i tell you.
Never fail to crack me up. =)
Haha. Do remember our songs,
"Too good to be true" & Beyond's "Love".

Thanks to all those who care & were there for me, Vic(I don't know what I'll do without a bestie like you.) Trev Mel(Di, youre always listenin & I appreciate that alot & though I dont say it, you know I love you.) Net Jill(I know you care girl. Thanks =)) Nickee Ade Sab Grace Mar Maine Sheryl & Robin. You guys really make all this so much easier. & for that, I love you all.

Let's see, we didnt even have a proper conversation that lasted 5 minutes today.
Though we were together the whole day today,
It felt as if I didnt even meet her.
Yes yes, I'm insensitive, always caring about others
& not giving you enough attention.
But do you know how it feels with every push you gave me?
Or when you just brush me aside?

Everything's goin wrong.
The whole relationship is fallin apart.
I'm not doing my part well, sorry.
& all the pushin me away just aint goin right.
I don't wanna say this,
but dont make me lose hope in this beautiful thing we once shared.
Tell me, what's really worth for me to hold onto now?

:: xiang hui dao guo qu
shi zhe bao ni zai huai li ::

Think about it Cole,
think about us.

2003-04-11T13:26:00.000+08:00

I am so so so good at multi-tasking, I swear.

Am doin all of the followin:
-Mirc
-Icq
-Bloggin(Now at this moment)
-Signin ppl's guestbooks
-Talkin on the phone
-Smsing
-Writing my English essay on Deception. (Hur.)
-Listenin to my darling Eminem.

Wow. Am i good or what. Hur.
I wanna have my eggs,kaya toast & tea!!
-glares angrily- Hmphf. Its all your fault i tell you!
Haha. Off vern goes. =)
Again.

2003-04-10T22:30:00.000+08:00

Wenta gardens today.
No, not to slack.
But to STUDY.
Yes yes, vern STUDIED!!
Haha. Finished my biology revision. =)

Was with my baby,Mel didi Maine PL Sheryl Honey Son.
Net daddy came down for awhile.
Manged to catch up with her after so long!
-Grins. & it'll be yuan dong's chicky rice tomorrow.
Can't wait! -Squeals.
Huis Dear had dinner with all of us.
Haha, we ate so much today i can't remember what we ate. =p

Oh wells, be havin steamboat with the debators tomorrow.
Yay our team rocks! =)) Biggie time!!

Haha. My dad just called my grandmama "Mommiee!"
Sheeshk` reminds me of Sheryl sial.
As I've told you today, "I want the best for you cause youre the best."
I love you sooo much son! =) My honey bunny.

Awwite, shall stop for now. Till then. =)

2003-04-09T23:03:00.000+08:00

It's THE first month today of the most beautiful thing of the century.
And the next most thing beautiful thing?
That we are still happily and deeply in love with each other.

Baby, thank you for everything you've done.
All the sweet things you did to make me smile
& all those efforts you put in to make this work.
I aint the best gf around I know,
Yet you accepted my flaws without a single complaint.
Youre really the sweetest thing that ever existed.
And for that, I Love You More Each Day.

2003-04-08T22:19:00.000+08:00

Wenta gardens to slack today. =) A-G-A-I-N!!

Was with my baby,Huis Va Mel.
Met up with Wei Colin Rachel for a lil while.
Played "I Never" at Sayang again.
Ate many peaches & called many ppl to tell them I crush them as forfeits.
Sighs. Havin major tummy discomfort now.
Oh wells, had a short chat with my Ray haizi too.
That darling of mine ah. Bruises all over. Tskk.
After cole sent me home,
I walked around my neighbourhood fer awhile.
Just needed to have that time alone to think.

Realised she's talkin to me so coldly suddenly.
Am i just bein over sensitive or is there something wrong?
You probably won't know, but you mean tons to me
Don't wanna lose sucha good friend like you.
& i love you so much as a friend. Sighs.

|| || d o w n || || d o w n || d o w n || ||
theemotionalturmoiliamgoingthrough.

& after all this i'm goin through.
I wanna thank you for being there for fucked vern.
You listened, you advised & you comforted.
Sweetheart, its really amazing the way you care.
Yes, TREVOR LEE!!!
I wanna be here for you like how you were there for me.
I really love you & the distance doesn't matter,
For youre right here in my heart.

2003-04-07T01:19:00.000+08:00

Wenta gardens to slack today. =)

Was with my baby, Wei Huis & Mel.
Saw Sann Seek Mal & Char Keiji too.
Was supposed to be bonding with my di.
-looks at Mel- Guess we didnt bond much huh.
Anyway i had chompchomp's chicken wings & stingray fer dindin.
Vern's one happy girl. =)
After dindin, we wenta Sayang to slack. & played "I never".
The penalty was to sms someone "I like you."
Apparently the people that my dearest didi chose were all pist.
Cause they wasted their smses,"Huh you like me!?" Lol.

Oh wells, the people who brighten up my life. =)
Er, the people at gardens with me I mean.

2003-04-06T22:37:00.000+08:00

Got this from Wyn who got it from Pings.
Okay. =) Here goes:

[my name is]: vern
[height?]: 167 168?
[in the morning i am]: sleepy. very very sleepy.
[all I need is]: my girlfriend, my friends, my cigarettes. (in no order of merit. hur.)
[love is]: COLE!
[if i could see one person right now]: (Refer to the above answer)
[i'm afraid of]: BALLOONS. They suck. Major.
[i dream about]: -Giggles- s-e-c-r-e-t!!

-have you ever ?
[pictured your crush naked?]: I'm not telling!!
[been in love]: Right now at this moment. =)
[cried when someone died]: -Nods.
[lied]: I'm a compulsive liar. -Grins.

-which is better ?
[coke or pepsi]: Coke definitely. Better still, coke light.
[flowers or candy]: I want candy!! But i like purple roses too.
[tall or short]: I like round stuffs. -looks at my baby.

-with the ~~opposite~~same sex.
[what do you notice first?]: Hair.
[last person you slow danced with]: My baby, of course. Hehe.
[worst question to ask]: me to her, "Who are you?"

-who.
[makes you laugh the most?]: Alot of people do.
[makes you smile]: My girlfriend & my friends. & my ciggies!!!
[gives you a funny feeling when you see them]: My ex-es, except Robin cos she's way too good a friend to me now. =)
[who do you have a crush on?]: My girlfriend'll be readin this shit. =x Haha. J/k.
[easiest to talk to]: My girlfriend. She listens to me all the time. =) Not forgettin, Wei & Vic. Best friend & Bestie! & Robin. She understands me too well.

-do you ever?
[stay on aim, waiting for someone special to you]: Ya, she was special.
[save AOL/aim conversations]: Nah.
[wish you were a member of the opposite sex]: Don't mind being Michael Jackson. He kicks ass!
[cry because of someone saying something to you]: Yeah, countless times.

-have you ever
[fallen for your best friend]: Errr, kinda? Lol. NO WAY!!!!! See her as a girl leh, how to like?!
[been rejected?]: =/
[rejected someone]: -Nods.
[used someone]: Haha. =x Oops.
[been cheated on]: Don't think so.
[cheated on someone]: -Looks away. Er im innocent la k!
[done something you regret]: Yes, lettin someone go. But I'm over her & im glad that she's happily attached now. So am I!!=)

-who was the last person..
[you talked to on the phone]: Am talkin to my baby now.
[hugged]: My girlfriend. =)
[you instant messaged]: Robin.
[instant messaged you?]: Mel my dearest one & only di. =p
[you laughed with]: Cole, Wei, Huis & Mel.

-do you.. are you.
[color your hair]: I hate black hair. =/
[habla espanol]: ??
[smoke cigarettes]: DUH.
[obsessive]: Obsessed with my girlfriend. Still am actually.
[could you live without the computer?]: Hell, NO!
[how many peeps are on your buddylist?]: Bitches & alot of others. =)
[what's your favorite food?]: Marlboro cigarettes. =)
[whats your favorite fruit?]: Strawberries. With lotsa whipped cream. Giggles.
[drink alchohol?]: The last thing i drank was, vodka shot! All thanks to my didi. =D Yay I love beer too!
[like watching sunrises or sunset]: Never got up early enough to watch sunrises. =p
[what hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?]: PHYSICAL! My threshold of pain damn friggin low sial.
[trust others way too easily?]: No idea. Depends if we click.

Ah, finally done. Off to watch tv. =D

2003-04-04T13:32:00.000+08:00

We were supposed to write an essay.
The topic?
"Deception".
Stared at the blank sheet of paper infront of me.
No, no, no.
It wasn't because I didn't know what to write.
Nor was it mental block.

I just didn't wanna write about you.
I may not be the PERFECT one,
But I've always treated you true & dear.
However when those lies & untruths became clear,
I felt so betrayed and stewpid.
To have trusted in someone like you.
Doubt you'll ever read this or even think its you.
Better still. Cause it doesn't matter anymore.

-

Ya I was angry, showed you attitude etc.
I've nothing to say in defence of myself.
Shrugs. Just to let you know,
i get just as affected as you when i talk to him
& when you talk to her. Nevermind.
Forgettit.

Be celebratin Gracie's bday later. =)
Can't express how much I love the bitches.
grace-vic-mar-jin-sab-vern
Ya its like 4 years of friendship?
Went through so much with them.
Those secondary years, tears, joy & all.
We grew up together and we learnt together.
The accceptance of one another's flaws,
As well as the forgiveness of one another's mistakes.
At the end of it all, we became stronger & better
Friends for one another.

2003-04-03T15:08:00.000+08:00

=(

-Sniffs.

Nah i'm fine! Thanks to all who were concerned.
-Hugs tight.

Ah let me tell you something funny.
Ma baby was so damnit cute last night.
She was standin downstairs at my place.
& we were communicatin through the window.
Btw, I live 7 stories high. Anyway,
she was like screamin her lungs away.
Then she knelt down & was like
"Will you marry me?"
Smiles. Retarded laogong of mine.
Ya la Vernia Lim loves Nicole Tan!!

2003-04-02T22:04:00.000+08:00

Fuck this blogger.
Not publishin this & that.
Sucks sial.

Oh wells, spent the day at home(if you know what I mean).
Then went townin with the bitches, my baby & rongers!!
Feels so good to be around ppl whom you love & love you too.
Ha. & my gracie wawa's bday will be this sat!!
Guess we're gonna celebrate this friday.

Best F
I love you no matter the distance
no matter the obstacles. Just want you to kknow that,
I'll be here now & forever. -Hugs.
Though our schedules simply dont allow
Time fer the both of us,
Do know I still care k?

Bestiee
We seemed to have drifted here & there over the years,
Ultimately we still share all our li'l girl secrets!
Althou I dont really tell you this often,
But iloveyou as the bond'll never break, remember? =)

Ah my benben baby. My bitches. My best F. My classmates.
& all the other special people.
Suddenly I feel so at peace with the world.
Hur.

2003-04-02T01:49:00.000+08:00

Stayed home the whole day.
Well, maybe except fer the fact that I went out to get my ciggies.
Lousy attempts at tryin to get my work done.
Did totally nothing, well maybe except for one pathetic math question.
Sheeshk` spent the afternoon whining to my baby abt it.

Oh wells talked to one of the bitches(the one whom we all miss dearly)
JIN!!!!!!!!!!!! =)
& talked to Sab too. Ah my darlings. -Grins.

Am gonna meet with THE vern's best friend tomorrow.
Or so I hope. -Crosses fingers.

-------first comes the attitude. next the shouting. then the screaming and all the yelling.
i am just waiting for the first official arguement-----------------------------------cut me.

Oh btw, to those of you who were/are in cJ or vJ,
kindly quit bitchin abt my friends, thank you.
I don't think their short skirts are any of YOUR business.
Besides I do think my bestie has very nice legs.
So keep your fuckin comments to yourselves. LOSERS.

2003-03-30T16:56:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to WEININGX my dearest moron-in-underwear~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hmm was in town the past couple of days.
Dropped by monks on Fri.
Was in town slackin before that.
Finally met my trev sweetheart after oh-so-long.
Of course my other sugar darlings too la. =)

Went down monks last night too.
All because of you ROBIN!!!
Ha. So you'd better be nicer to me. Grr.

Hmm my baby did something very sweet fer me yesterday!
Okay Vic Mar cJ Bran etc; we were all slackin at starbucks.
Then suddenly my baby disappeared.
& I called her up to ask her where she was,
then she told me she was helpin Mar buy something.
So i was like, "Okay, you better hurry. We're leavin fer monks soon."
Then after awhile, she suddenly appeared behind me.
Then she popped out with a li'l pressie of chocos. =D
Ha. Chocos with liquor. Yummy yummy.
Thanks darling. You really rockk.

Am munchin on the chocos now. Ahhh.
Sinful delight. =)

Can't go out as much now cause of the SARS.
Parents being real fucked up bout everything.
Urgh. -pulls hair out in fustration.

2003-03-27T23:19:00.000+08:00

bluehead> ur gf stays with u?
-
[kaeden]> where ur dearie?
vern\\> shes at home haha
[kaeden]> u not with her?
[kaeden]> thought u always with her

Ha. All these precious people in my life.
Never fail to make me smile. = )
Thanks grandma. Thanks kor.
Well I really didnt know my baby & I seem so inseperable.
Hurhur. =p Oh wells, I didnt go out at all today!
Hmm its the SARS. Parents are worried I'll catch it.
Sighs. But will be goin town tomorrow I guess. =p
Off to watch teevee now. Laters!

2003-03-26T22:01:00.000+08:00

SCHOOL'S SUSPENDED.

Three cheers fer that sial.
Sighs. But i feel very sorry fer those who kena SARS.
Anyhows everyone just be careful awwite? =)

Oh wells my spark fer cheerleadin came back!!
Think I've got the SAC girls to thank fer that.
Jo Sann Grace ... etc.
You girls made me realise how important it is in my life
& of course I had lotsa fun with you all bimboes!

Was with my baby today of course.
Yesh dandan is so in love with her benben.
& incase youre wonderin,
She's benben & im dandan & together we're BEN DAN!!
Like stewpid in chinese. -Giggles.
Love you deardear. =D

2003-03-23T16:31:00.000+08:00

Wenta watch fires within fires yesterday.
At the arts museum w my baby & the whole of LD.
Hur. It was not bad la.
After that we wenta grab desert & talked bout lotsa shit.
Ha. Well I really love my LD-ians alot!! -winks at va-

Had a damn romantic one hour ride on the rickshaw.
Ya just me & my laogongz.
We went boatquay,esplanade,desker rd & everywhere else.
On that li'l rickie. =)
Talked fer that whole hour.
Oh a funny thing happened!!!!

While we were on that rickie on our way to esplanade,
Cole >> Dya think we'll see anyone we know here?
Vern >> Nah dont think so la. You think anyone will be so civilised to be here at this point of time?
& right at that point of time, I saw .....
CARMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ha. =) Damn cornified. & I was like wavin like siaoz to her.
She seemed pretty shocked thou`.
After the ride, we walked all over the place.
Had lotsa fun thou cause I was with my benben laogong la. =p

Anyway today is my darling kerker's birthday.
/sings a song ::
"Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to kerker,
Happy birthday to yooooooooou!!!!!"
-huggies with many sugar honeyed kisses-
Love you dearie for everything. =)

2003-03-21T16:22:00.000+08:00

Monks?
Hendrix?

Shrugs.

2003-03-19T21:26:00.000+08:00

It wasnt very sunny today.
So didnt get much tan! Bleah.
Over at second home now.
Mar's over too. With my daddy. =)

Oh wells, think my baby's headin off to monks tonite.
Shall be a goodie girl & stay home!! =p
& wait for her to come home. Ha.

2003-03-18T23:47:00.000+08:00

So
Expensive
Nothing
TO
See
Also

Ya thats where im goin tomorrow.
With the bitches!!!!!! =D Yay.
Well, apparently alotta ppl dont know we're a clique
Cos we're seldom out together.
But all this is gonna end, cos we're gonna stick together from now on!
-Nods-. -14-16-17-38-69-
We better spend all the time now together bcos when sch starts for you guys, we're gonna drift like siaoz. But keep in mind that I love every single one of you no matter what & we'll all gonna stay as goodie friends for as long as the sun shines! =) Okz that sounded rather cliche. But anyhows, vern's arms are gonna be here for a hug anytime you want. Just specially open for you all my blu blooded princesses. =)

P.S. i love you too la laogong. -nods- cole's vern loves vern's cole.

2003-03-18T14:17:00.000+08:00

To Monster ::

Oh boy I love losers like you.
Firstly you dont know how much time & effort we took for the debate
So fuckin keep all those comments to yourself.
The judges chose a winner. They chose us.
That justified who deserved it.
Secondly there were like no questions posed to us.
So whats there to answer.
Seems like youre from st nicks,
come on. You're wearin the same shit as me
So why dont you just come & talk to me personally.
Seems that we have alot to catch up on.
The class is 4Grace & the name is VERNIA LIM.
Tsk. Do get your facts right before insulting me.
One more thing I do wanna see how monsterish you look.
& im preparing myself for a GREAT laugh. =D
SEE YOU motherfucker.

Hur. St Nicks is really gettin outta hand huh
All these pathetic fuckers who dont even dare reveal their identities.
The best place to get me is right at my face.
So come on.

Am headin to town now.
Waitin for her to get changed. =)

2003-03-17T13:30:00.000+08:00

Hurhur. Hols are here.
But im gettin my ass screwed by my parents.
Just cause I passed only 3 fuckin subjects.
Wtf. -mutters-

Oh wells, im bored. =/
Think i'll be bloggin quite alot this few days.
Sighs. Better start plannin what im gonna do this week.
Cant wait for tomorrow!!
Am gonna study w my PL darling & Sheryl honey son.
-rubs hands in glee- Yay.

2003-03-13T23:14:00.000+08:00

Just came home from town.
Was with my baby,Rongers Zenia Mousey.
Met Net Mel Mal Sann too. =D

Had a great time laughin at Zenia.
She's damn furny!! =)
Hurhur.
Okz the debate finals' tmr.
Shucks. Damn scarey. =/
Really hope we'll win.

Ah Pau I suddenly missin you like crazy.
VIC You bitch!! Better call me sooon. =p

i look at her she looks at me
shes got me thinkin bout her constantly but she dunno how i feel
she carries on without a doubt i wonder if she figured out
im crazy for this girl yeah im crazy for this girl.
Yesh babeh im crazy over you. =)

Rongers & Zenia Recess tmrw in school yeah.
Better turn up early i tell you. Orange bowlll !!!! =D

2003-03-10T14:22:00.000+08:00

She asked. =)

I agreed. =)

[[0409030369]]

Hmm clear up the air first.
We got attached last night. Not today.
Yeah 9th Of March.

2003-03-09T19:53:00.000+08:00

Guess I dont needa mention where I am huh.
Think she's bathin now. She just disappeared.
Ah we just came back from novena. =p
Was supposed to be discussin bout the friggin debate
But nothin came outta it. =/
Oh wells.
**A note for you**
Whatever's happenin to us now?
Maybe I'm moodswingin as usual,
Or maybe im just over imagining stuffs.
Izzit the distance or the lack of understanding.
When I look at you & start thinkin,
Deep inside I know this for sure,
As much as I hate to admit this,
I love you & I still care.

Saturday
Spent the whole day roarin away with laughter.
With cole,the bitchex,ben,xiangxiang,ceciila,guan,mel&bin
Ya met my luckie star too!! -hugs cj tight-
Hur. She will know what i mean. =D
Sighs.
Wanna catch up with u soon best F.

2003-03-08T16:18:00.000+08:00

At my new second home now.
Hur. Just brought a whole loada stuffs over.
Clothes, daily necessities & etc.
& that girl's downstairs eatin her lunch.
Sighs. Love her mans. -giggle-

Gave monks a miss last night.
Am friggin prouda myself. =D
Wells wells cant really cheerlead not even on sports day!?
Cause of fuckin SYF.
Dunno if I should rejoice that im in or what.
Would be goin downtown laters i think.
Watch Maid In Manhattan.
Ya ya & see my sexaye J-Lo.

Oh wells new debate topic.
This time, its the finals.
I do need help. -looks around-
[[ P r o p o s i t i o n ]]
"This house believes that Young Singaporeans nowadays are apathetic"
Sighs. Really wanna win this thing.

Anyway my school's funfair is comin soon.
Please come & buy tix from me!!!
Its gonna be fun i promise. =D
15th march -- Saturday.

Ha. Awwite think im off to some blog readin.
Btw, AJ I fucking miss you like fuck.
Call me soon or something ya?! -hugs-

2003-03-05T16:46:00.000+08:00

At my laogong's hse now.
Just finished bathing. =)
So fresh & clean. Hur.
Btw we won that debate!!!
Was worryin that the other team was too strong.
Sighs. But they were pretty good thou.

Oh wells im not allowed to join National's.
Wtf. Anyway everyone else aint joinin anymore.
Damn saddenin sial.

[[Pretty baby dont you leave me
i have been saving smiles for you,
Pretty baby why cant you see
that youre the one that i belong to.]]
Love you. =)

2003-03-02T02:45:00.000+08:00

>>>> Chanté Moore
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Sexy Thang

How can I tell you, how you've touched my life,
I have no words to describe you,
do you remember when you wrote "I love you" in my hand ?
I thought to myself "this is the man",
there's something about you.

You've got that sexy thang goin' on,
you've got that sexy thang.

Don't you know exactly what drew me to you,
was it your sexy eyes that see right through me.
or was it your caress that provides without words or contest,
that you know and I know you're the best,
there's something about you.

My love's automatic, when it comes to you,
I'm at your command, there's nothing I won't do,
claim me as your own, I don't mind possession,
you know and I know, you're my obsession.

ever since that day I met you baby
you've had it goin' on
don't know how you do it baby
but you know how to turn me on
you've got it goin' on
and I like what is goin' on
you've got it goin' on baby
it's in the way you talk
you know, you've got that sexy thang
so sexy

My love is automatic when it comes to you,
there's nothing that I won't do,
call my name all night and day,
all I do is want you baby,

you've got it goin' on
you've got it
hey you, you've got it
you've got it

2003-02-27T20:39:00.000+08:00

Yes yes,
cheer prac everyday.
How pathetically boring is that.
But i do love those bimbos if you ask me.

Hmm yeah my class won the debate yesterday,
which means we're up against 4D next wed.
Ya i've got the best speaker,
thou i was critisised for being too over-confident & overly insulting.
-Shrugs- Thats just me.
In order to win, I gotta be a bitch. =/

Was scoldin green house members today.
Sighs. Our house is just losin the spirit we have.
We used to be on top & look at us now. =(

[[ O p p o s i t i o n ]]
"We should ban animal experimentation."
Wtf.

I'm at a loss of what to do.
Neither do I know what you want exactly.
Vern is very very confused.

2003-02-26T20:13:00.000+08:00

\\ its like as if im holding on to something that can only be my dreams. feel as if im holding on to nothing sometimes. which is why ive decided to let go. and start a new chapter for you have become history. \\

2003-02-24T22:43:00.000+08:00

Talkin to my dearest laogong on the phone now.
Ya my very violent husband. Hur.

Hmm busy with the upcomin sports day house cheer routine
Thou the NEWater cheer has just ended on fri,
I've got somethin else to look forward to!!
National cheerleadin competition!!! =D
Hopefully we can bring back the trophy like how we did in '01.

I miss
Wei
Vic
Mar
Nickee
Jill
Trev
Nix
Cheryl
Sheryl
Sab
Kaeden
aJ
Pat
Ade
Weiningx
Colin
Rick
Junia
Robin
Kerker
Rongers
Jane

Ya think thats bout it.
Aint gonna start a whole namelist sial.
Aint good at names.

Was talkin to Colin dudedude on the phone this morn.
She was guessin the person i like.
My hint was C-O-L ....
& she guessed herself. Hur.
How smart is that sweetie of mine. =)
Yeah for that you deserve a kiss. -Mwahhh-

2003-02-22T16:23:00.000+08:00

Havent been bloggin for so long.
Been rather, infact, VERY busy.

Hmm havent been meetin up with all my darlings.
& that really sucks. =/
Cause you know who you are. -Hugs-
Yeah, the exwhatevers (i see that we've sorta spilt up)
But to each & every 1 of you, I still care no matter what.

Li'l One
Thanks for being the sunshine in school,
For making school something i wanna go to.
You can turn my frown upside down & i love you!!
-squeezes you tight-

Another bunch of ppl whom i love & miss dearly.
The blue bloo bitchex!!!
Vic
Mar
Sab
Grace
Jin - Fuck you bitch you better fly back right now!!!

Off to town.

2003-02-16T14:37:00.000+08:00

Hmm i can't seem to see my comment box appearing.
Yet ppl are signin comments.
Izzit just me or what?

Had a great Saturday.
First the rap recordin went great
& it was really cool to be like doin such shit,
all the headphones mikes & all,
know what im sayin?!!
Then I had cheer prac,
Tiring but fulfilling. =)
Got almost everything done, right from the stunts to the pyramid.

Then, it was dinner with Rongers & Kerker
Okay, dinner with Rongers, to be exact.
Hur. & stewpid Kerliang bought me 2kg of sugar
for a vday gift. How "sweeeet" of her to do so.
We went to take some random bus, 13, to go anywhere it took us to.
But it went all the way to geylang. Wanted to tail this woman or this couple,
but they dont seem to be gettin off. So we got off at geylang.
Decided to go Esplanade instead. So off we went.
Bowlin after walkin in River Hongbao for 15 mins. Hurhur.
Rongers looks like a li'l boy when she bowls!!
Ha. So cuteee! Hmm we went home after that.
Tiring tiring day. Zzzzzzz.

Everytime I see you smile,
It brings up to heavens so high.
You look me in the eyes & I go weak,
Wonder what it takes to get to you.

2003-02-15T03:07:00.000+08:00

Home from monks.
-Yawns- Needa get some zzz.
Gotta wake at 7 tomorrow,
for some rap recording. -Coughs-
My voice sounds dammit bad now.
Sighs.
Oh btw, stop impostering!
All these "jill"s la, so not my pill.
Shoo. =/

Nickee We didnt talk much,
in fact only a few sentences of exchange!
Hmm do call me soon k? iloveyou.

Feelings resurfaced for _____.
Its not supposed to happen.
I'm not supposed to like her anymore.
Damn damn damn.

& now, i think im fallin for you instead.
Confusion stirred into a huge blender.
Fuck it all.

2003-02-13T21:06:00.000+08:00

School school school.
Almost slapped that motherfuckin bitch of the english teacher.
Was pissing the hell outta me. & the whole class.
Insultin us & callin us names.
Called me up to talk properly to her.
& I was really literally "shaking" with fury.
Kicked the chair & was gonna slap her.
-Mutters under my breath- Still so pist now.
Just thinkin bout it makes my blood boil.

I can't find eggs and flour!
How to bake those *rocky* brownies?!!
**Pun intended.
& I also don't have cookie cutters too.

Wanna see her now.
Just one of those sudden urges.
Her smile keeps playin in my mind,
her voice keeps ringin in my head.
Sheeshk`. Am goin crazy. =/
-knocks my head-
Sane vern, be sane.

2003-02-12T22:31:00.000+08:00

Was townin in the afternoon,
Sittin at spinelli's rottin away with lotsa ppl.
then some came over for mahjong.
Wei Rongers Rick Pau Cole!!
Stewpid Kerker couldnt come. =/

Met her.
You don't know how happy that made me. =)
Btw, i hope my brownies will turn out fine.
I really hope so. -crosses fingers & pray fervently-

Nickee baby I cant meet tmr.
Gotta bake & rehearse for my rap recordin.
Sorry dear. Friday k? You & Me. -hugs-

2003-02-11T21:45:00.000+08:00

Went for my weekly dosage of chicky rice.
At yuan dong with my dearest sonny Sheryl
& darling Nix. Ate & crapped like crazy.
& being the ever stewpid & greedy me,
I ate son's anti-tummy ache pills & ive got a fuckin tummyache.
Talk bout anti. =/

Came home with Cole laogongz,
Dropped by Tim's place for awhile.
Liangyi, Seekee, Adeline, Nett daddy & some other ppl.
They were all playin mahjong & I got so tempted to play too.
Urgh.

Hmphf. Nevermind. I'm playing tomorrow!
All my darlings from 3grace' 02 comin over to play.
Will be expectin to win lotsa money i hope. Hurhur.
Off to call Cole thou i think she's havin fun over at Tim's.
She's my date this fri. Ha.
-waiting for my purple roses chocos & ring-
Thankew dearie, never mentioned how much you mean to me,
cause I hope you already know. -hugs & kisses-

I'm missing you more than anything right now.
And knowing youre so near makes me feel so secure.
Wanting to be held in ur arms like how you always do.
Makin me feel so loved.

2003-02-10T21:21:00.000+08:00

To the [ A M A C ] club ::
I'm sorry all of you.
Was being an insensitive cow.
Hope everything will be fine &
That we'll rock on being
Anti MuscleAche Alliance Club
Of course, i love you too Huis dear.

Sighs. Be goin to yuan dong tmrw for chicky rice.
Those off work(that is you Nickeeee!) or no sch(that means you Sheryl!!!)
are invited to have lunch with me. Hurhur.
Or anyone else I've missed. Just come come & we can eat talk laugh bitch.

Wanna get my new glasses sooon.
Dark brown plastic frames. -grins-
Nice nice. Very vern

Tryin to make the attraction fade away,
But nothing helps as she's always on my mind.

2003-02-09T15:42:00.000+08:00

Fucked up period for me.
Am driftin from so many ppl,
its scaring me.
Who will be standing by my side after everything ends?
Guess those will be my only true friends.
And I pray that you will be one of those standing there.

Am strongly attracted to her.
She's straight, & as if thats not bad enough,
she's anti-crook. Wtf.
Oh i just found out that she stays a few streets away from me.
How cool is that! -Swoons in delight-

Updates for the past few days.
Hmm cheerleading with the bimbos on Saturday.
Monks on Friday.
Cole laogong's place on Thursday.

Busy busy.
Off to do my proposal for the food & fun fair.
Anyone interested to come to my school's fair??
My class is doin this pub kinda thing.
Great music I promise, Good food.
As for the drinks, -looks away-
Sorry no alcohol allowed in school!
Anyhows do contact me if you want coupons awwite?
$10 for one ticket & it'll be on the 15th of March Saturday.

2003-02-06T14:38:00.000+08:00

Succumbed to the tempation.

Got hit by a force so great.

The head's spinning.
The body's banging.

Dreamy intoxications into elussive hallucinations.

Awwite, off to gardens for some good ol' slackin.
Anyone interested?

| || Breathe you into life | ||

2003-02-04T17:40:00.000+08:00

-Bad- You're the exact opposite of what any guy
wants or needs, unless he happens to need a
quick lay. You're cruel. You toy with people.
You're probably a bitch, and i don't think i'd
like you if i met you. Oh go screw a random
male already.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

-sniffs- Whoa. The comments sting a li'l.
Well there you go. Vern's a bad gf.
But all that's gonna change right?
-Pokes Sheryl-

2003-02-04T16:32:00.000+08:00

vernia: You have difficulty getting emotionally close to others. You believe in live and let live. You are future oriented. You can be quite inventive and quite curious. You enjoy a challenge. You can take thought-directed actions. You can handle details well. You have a methodical mind. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically. You have much enthusiasm with a driving attitude toward achievement in life.

lim: You are fair-minded sometimes to the point of being opinionated. You have a strong need to be loved and appreciated. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically. You are always involved with projects and things to do.

Ya, whatever. Need to be stroked?! Hur.

milkhotel> vern dearie?
vern\\> maomao!
vern\\> -hugs u tight-
milkhotel> i miss u ..
milkhotel> *hugs.

My dearest maomao, Fenny! =)
Miss her so damn much.

|| | Fuck free world | ||

2003-02-04T15:11:00.000+08:00

Whoa. CNY!!!
Hong bao. -Mutters- Damn all those stingy pokes.
$150. Wtf. So pathetic. -Winces-

New Year's Eve

Steamboat for reunion dinner.
Didn't eat much thou. -Smiles.
Mahjong the whole night. Won bout 20+

Day One of CNY
Went sengkang to visit my relatives,
Met Kenn for a li'l while.
Embassy for bout a few minutes in the night
then got chased to monks. =/
Damn!!!
But anyhows, Mon Fattys takecare over there awwite?

Day Two of CNY
Sengkang again. But another aunt's place.
(Why does everyone stay there?!)
Town after that. 8 mile with Kerker & Rongers.
Mahjong at Kerker's place.
Me, her, Wei & Rongers.
Mahjong again when I reached home. Tsk.

Day Three of CNY
Took a train down all the way from AMK to the airport.
Sent Jin off. -Sniffs.-
Most of us were like tearin away.
After that, I went over to my darling godbro's hse.
Ian, Vic, Jerage, Abby, Mad, Kim & many other guys.
Played Ban Lut & Mahjong.
Ooooh i love gambling sial.

As for today,
I wenta school (Like,duh?!)
& thanks to Kaeden korkor,
who kept me awake by smsin me the whole time.
Of course my Sheryl son too!
She's one son I dote on alot.
Hate it when shes down. -Frowns.-

Awwite, be goin to catch those Zzzz i've been missin on.
Not sleepin for 4 nights straight. Tell me how that feels.
Urgh. =/
Still smsin my dearest Kaeden kor.
She's like dyin in school. Hurhur. Poor you!!

"& I'm missing you so much girl.
Electricfy me once again."
-Giggle.- Only certain ppl know what im talkin bout.
Electrocuted vern. Hurhur. =p

2003-01-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

Why are the words like overlapping?
Sighs. Met the bitchex in town today.
Had farewell dinner to send Jin off.
Sniffs.
Was damn fuckin sad.

But I do realise that the bitchex mean alot to me,
As much as we always have backstabbin shit goin on,
Ultimately deep inside us,
we love each other.
& I guess that's all that matters.
ain't it?

Will miss havin that 19-bitch around.
But I'm assured that the rest are still here.
Love all the bitchex. =)

After dinner we went ktv-in.
Jovin Jay Jeri LayHan Jan were there too.
After all our outta tune singin,
Jin Vic & I headed home.

Rongers Kerker!!
Sorry I couldnt meet.
really wanted to spend time with Jin.
I'll make it up to you another day awwite?
Love you -hugs-

2003-01-30T08:40:00.000+08:00

An advanced happy CNY to everyone.

Hmm will be headin to town today.
So anyone who wanna meet,
just gimme a ring yeahs?

[[ Just put it all on me. Isnt that what you always do. ]]
Get me outta this shithole. Fuck.

2003-01-28T23:04:00.000+08:00

I'm suddenly sinkin back into depression.
Everyone seems so distant.
Everyone seems so caught up in their own lives.

I guess change is inevitable.
So she changed, you changed, they changed,
we changed, he changed, i changed.
Vern's changin. To ?
-Shrugs- This whole shit hole makes me wanna just curl up & cry.

| || Cause I am dying inside to hold you | ||

2003-01-27T22:57:00.000+08:00

Set up the C club 7.
Yesh yesh, lame name.
Stands for Cheerleaders Club 7. Hur.
Wells, but I really do love all the other 6 ppl in it,
Eu, Por, Nic, Ct, Min & Sera.
All so funny & bitchy, esp Min.
Ha. We always have so much fun bitching. -Grins-
Sighs. Will miss them & my Jane doggie when cheer pract ends.

Had cheer pract today after school.
Will be goin downtown tomorrow with Pau.
Doing some CNY shopping i guess.
Saw damn alotta tops that we wanted to get. Hur.
Anyone interested to join us just gimme a ring yeah ?

Going to go do my english proj soon.
Presentation due tomorrow.
Got a feeling that Va & I will just cook some shit up,
& act some stewpid crap. Ha. The usual.

vern misses sheryl honey son

Of course, my whatevers too !!
Wei Nickee aJ Jill Trev Chel Rick Pau
& my other precious darlings, the Bitches & kerker + rongers !!

2003-01-26T13:17:00.000+08:00

Havent blogged in days.

Sighs. Okay shall try to summarize everything.

Minzie just called. Be meetin her later.
For what ? Cheer prac. -Groans-

Saturday
Was in town with Wei
Had my yuan dong chicky rice with Kerker & Rongers.
Yesh in case your wonderin what yuan dong is,
It's fat east !!! =)
Met Aj Chel Minn Sann etc & watched some dance shit.
But it was really cool & I had fun at youthpark. Ha.
Went over to Kerker's place after that.
Mahjong & Pool. Had lotsa fun with them sial. =p

Friday
School. LD. Cheer prac.
Then finally i gotta meet Rongers & Kerker for supper !!
My only mode of de-stressin ah. Played the amk arcade. Tsk.

Thursday
My bro & his gf's birthday celebrations.
I swear that almost half of Spore's population of bengs & lians turned up.
There were just so many of them.
Was bored at first, but they were all damn funny ppl.
Made damn alotta friends. =) Hur.

Yeah so this is just what my boring life is bout.
Gotta run soon for cheer prac. Miss you all.

2003-01-22T22:42:00.000+08:00

School.
Cheer pract.
Bishan with Pau,NiCOLE,Sheryl & Rick.

Did my math,
Talked to countless ppl on my hp,
Vic Thanks for always listening =)
You're the bestest !! -hugs-

Talkin to her on the phone now.
Sighs.

2003-01-22T00:08:00.000+08:00

weiningx> VErns a NIce and swEet GIrllL

ecirkcud> i love you to bits
ecirkcud> and i know u know i love you and its needless for me to say
ecirkcud> just touch ur heart.
ecirkcud> u know i'm there.
ecirkcud> =)

vern\\> -hugs tight-
`55tired> -hugs tighter-
vern\\> -hugs even tighter-
`55tired> ok. u win.
`55tired> lol.
vern\\> okie la go slp
vern\\> -tucks son into bed-
vern\\> mommy loves u !
`55tired> -tucks mom into bed-

See. What darlings I have. Esp Jill & Sheryl SEAHS
As for Weiningx,
Hmm. Hur. She knows best la. -winks-

ecirkcud> u know i love u
ecirkcud> but sometimes i really dont have to time to tell u

See what I mean? -beams-

2003-01-21T22:34:00.000+08:00

Okay.
Havin major probz with this whole template.
Anywayz you guys gotta bear with it first yeah ?
Know this shit is really ugly.

My comment box has gone missing,
So leave a note in my guestbook first yeah ?
Till the box returns, its the book for now =)

>>>>>>Sheryl
To loneliness of school so long,
the search for strength to carry on.
My every hope had seemed to die,
My eyes had no more tears to cry.
Then like the sun shined from up above,
you surrounded me with your company.
(To the tune of "My everything")
Ha. Well honey son,
Just wanna thank you for smsin & phone-in with me for the past weeks.
You've been an extremely sweet darling
& I thank you for providin me with joy & comfort when im stuck in school.
You're my EVERYTHING !!!!! -smiles & big hug-

2003-01-20T22:53:00.000+08:00

She smsed me again.
After oh-so-long.
& after I told Sheryl that I think I've gotten over her.
She's making things so difficult.
Well, ain't gonna fall back into that bottomless pit.
I must stay strong. I must.
Not gonna let her take me for granted.

What's the worse thing ?
She's comin back to sch tomorrow to have lunch with me.
Tell me, how bad can things get ?!

| || Whenever you break up with someone,
you leave a piece of your soul with her. &
its that missing piece that hurts so much. | ||

The above is not directed to anyone. =)
Just got it from a Spanish play.

2003-01-19T01:05:00.000+08:00

Okay, I couldn't make it at all.
Tried not to go over on Fri night.
But seems like I'd have let everyone else down.
Sorry to the whatevers k ?
For not wantin to go monks at first.
But in the end, I still went down right ?
Sighs. There goes my whole MIA plan. =/

Anyway I've decided to set priorites right this year.
Monks for me = Once a month.
Town for me = Once a week.
And I'll only spend most of my time with my close close friends,
Like Wei Nickee Aj Vic Trev Jill Nix Cheryl Sheryl Mar Grace Sab Jerage Sharon
Guess that's bout it.

=aJ=
Don't doubt my sincerity for the friendship that lies ahead.
Don't question my love for you.
Really do want you to know that you ain't last in my list.
Sex part, you're the best & you rock !!! =)

=Nickee=
Time & distance may have brought us apart, but
do remember that I care & I still love you all the same =)

=Sheryl=
Dearie son, mommy misses you lots
& can't wait for you to get better so we can go out
have fun & just fuck everything else !!!!! =p

>>>>>>>>> To my whatever-family :
Don't think I'm able to spend much time with you guys this year.
But I still want you to know that I'll be behind you all all the time,
& I'll always make myself free to listen to your probz or even crap
Cause having you guys in my life was a great thing to have happened.

2003-01-15T21:35:00.000+08:00

Vern has gone into hiding for awhile.

Take care each & every single one of you.
No more monks, no more townin on weekdays.
It's just gonna be me alone. M I A.
Will be missin you all.
-Hides-

2003-01-13T20:49:00.000+08:00

Try cheerleading over with us,
well you'll just feel like crying.

Ain't gonna complain much cause I know at the end of it all,
I'm gonna look back & know its all worth it.
The sweat, tears, time & pain.

Lookin at Pau & Va now,
I just feel so goddamn sad !!! =(
They sound so tired & everything ?
& my heart just so pain pain cos they really sound so sad.
Well, we gotta have the determination & endurance,
Cause we're so gonna make it. =)

21st Feb This date.
Uncle Goh Chok Tong. He's gonna watch us cheerlead.
No vern, you cannot screw up.
You're gonna go for every practice & put your heart into it.
Yesh vern, that's what you're gonna do.
-Points to my ass- Screams.

I wanna M.I.A from the world for a few months.
Bye all.